xNotTheGirl16x

The guilt eats at my heart The fear of having to let go Makes my eyes constantly water The anger in your eyes Burns like fire into the Back of my head as I walk away It shouldn't have had to end this way The memories we've shared and the Bond between us You swore you'd never break as your Soft lips touched mine And now it's all over It's all I can do to not Blame myself

Plop, plop, plop The tears stream down my cheeks and onto the Blood stained jeans I can't bear to part with "I love you…but it has to be this way" Jesus, your eyes can't even meet mine Those baby blues stare at the ground so intently Without this man in my arms There will be no life within me; No air to breathe No ground to walk upon I can't fly anymore You were my wings That have now gone away A kiss upon my cheek A squeak of a door… You've left…gone away My legs give way The tears fall faster Oh, the heartache… Come back I'll be waiting.

I pause at the opened door and turn around Your face gleaming like the bright morning sun The words you used made me feel as if I was flying High, along with the robins in the far distance You told me how I was gorgeous, Beautiful And the only one for you— A special bond no one could ever replace Oh, silly me The gullible, naïve girl who believed Every foolish word your lips uttered But it sounded so damn good I feel your eyes on me and I couldn't help but Blame myself for being so ridiculously stupid I thought you meant everything you said Until you cheated

Each and every day of my life I am constantly judged Not by my actions or my words But simply by my looks Each and every day of my life I am constantly ridiculed Not by the things I do but simply By the way I choose to live my life My hair isn't good enough Nor is my shirt clean enough Nothing seems to be good enough For the strangers that walk by me Each and every day People glance at me on the street and I try so hard to Dodge and ignore the harsh looks but deep inside my mind The words play out…over and over They all expect me to be perfect Expect me to never make mistakes… Never do the wrong thing The pressu